Contents
Introduction Esoteric Hidden Treasure 1
Chapter
1 A Choice of Fate 9
Chapter
2 On the Pilgrim’ s Road
50
Chapter
3 Niguma off in the Distance 69
Chapter
4 Avalanches and Wolf Packs 83
Chapter
5 The Female Spirits of Nepal 102
Chapter
6 The Worries of a Female Spirit 116
Chapter
7 Khyungpo Naljor’ s Dream Demons
134
Chapter
8 The Pilgrimage 162
Chapter
9 Long-gone Fallen Flowers 199
Chapter
10 Going Back 219
Chapter
11 On the Road to Enlightenment 241
Chapter
12 Reasons for Love 266
Chapter
13 The Light of Sarnath 276
Chapter
14 Experience for the Soul 317
Chapter
15 Tasting Rajgir 354
Chapter
16 Sukhasiddhi’ s Test
392
Chapter
17 The Light of the Great Mudra 424
Chapter
18 Teaching the Sweet Dew of the
Dakinis 458
Chapter
19 The Soul of the Search 511
Chapter
20 The Bloody Light of Kapilavastu 584
Chapter
21 The Light of the Bliss of Emptiness 625
Chapter
22 A Distant Holy Song 651
Chapter
23 A Barrel Full of Demons 672
Chapter
24 Dearly Beloved Khyung 696
Chapter
25 The Origin of the Dispute 706
Chapter
26 The Prostitutes of Vaishali 725
Chapter
27 Sharwadi’ s Longing
764
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28 Niguma’ s Mandala 770
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29 Sharwadi’ s Pain 787
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30 Niguma’ s Sweet Dew 804
Chapter
31 The End Is Also the Beginning 823
Postscript One Must Establish One’s Own Rules 841
Appendix
My Father Xuemo and I
871